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I wonder when I started to shuffle. I used to walk everywhere with long proud strides, as if oblivious to the flowing shoe strings flying behind me like streamers. But now I shuffle and no one notices my shoes at all. My smile used to be ever present, open, unafraid. Its still there now, but quieter, held in, as if it was a precious thing and the giving of it is not free. Once I wasn't always tired. Perhaps the change is simply a result of growing up, only children have boundless energy and fully open hearts, maybe it is the result of being a telemarketer and being hated for a living, but I can't help feeling like this is all wrong, like this isn't really what life should be. Surely I should have a better reason to take a breathe then just to say I'm breathing.