Good days

Titus are you confused?
The site of these ashes
Tells you something
That you did not expect to hear after all those words you have heard

Hurt burns inside, cancer of fear
Every weakness a paling of your dream
An echo ringing from the cross on your shoulders
Footsteps bleeding sweat on Gethsemene
Reminders flowing from our Predecesor
A shouting in pain and greif
Wailing tells me of a bloody path
Desperation that you thought was past

Rejoice, Titus in your spilled blood
Agony overshadowing your steps
Happy in this bitter cup
Laughter doesn't linger today
Do not bemoan its absents
Balem had no grievances
Goliath was well fed
Pilate dies in a comfy bed

Today is an appointment in the wilderness
Refining the gold unsinged
Tomorrow opens up your eyes
Saying "Well done, Titus, good and faithful servant of Mine"

Gosh darn it, that didn't turn out nearly as well as the one that I wrote when I was inspired and then accidently deleted!!!!! Gosh that upsets me, but its ok.


I'm in love right now, I would say again, but it has been there, just thinnly hidden. In love with God, in love with Life, in love with love, in fact. I'm happy to yet be an irresponsible teen, to be unbroken, undefeated, to laugh in the rain. I'm thankful for so many things. You know, Wednesday I was thinking of all the pain I've gone through since last year, all the things I gained only to lose, all of my numerous mistakes, and my painful discoveries of what human nature really is, and yesterday, I was sad about all that. Today all that pain can still be remembered, but I don't regret it, loss means I had and I will have again, and it wasn't so bad, plus God catches our tears and turns them into gold. I'm thankful for the friends (fewer then I thought I had, but more faithful and loving then I ever guessed) that stand beside me, I'm thankful for my parents, who love me despite my failures (I know that they're probably gonna beat me with my own thankfullness in a few weeks, but yeah, I love them berry berry much) I am thankful for all my wonderful siblings, they've been a source of continuous joy and encouragement to me, I'm thankful for a roof over my head and stability to return home to this weekend (last year I returned to Nac, but there was no home, just a couple of small houses that were very temporary dwellings and rather uncomfortable) I am thankful for the many exciting opportunities I have been able to take advantage of this year and the many new people I have met. First and foremost, I am thankful for all that God has done for me and given to me and I know that whatever His plan is, it is very good,

Happy Thanksgiving
and God Bless You


taTa