Potential
I saw the bad guy
I hit him
The mirror cracked
But he didn't fall down
And it is me, not him
That's bleeding
I was thinking of people, perspectives and potential last night. Jordan and I watched a movie about a gang of phsycopathic killers(well actually it was about the cops who caught them, but there were psycopathic killers in it, anyway....), and the haunting thing about it was that the fiercesome, sick, Chinese gang leader killer dude looked JUST LIKE my freind Craig K! It was weird. But it got me thinking about potential. The fascinating thing about potential is that it can go equally both ways. Its kind of scary really, walking into a room full of people, I'm a big enough person, (Intellectually and personality wise) I think, that I can add to the group, I could help people, maybe in a big way, and I want to. But there's two sides of me (I almost said halfs, which would have been doubly weird since halfs isn't even a word, but I certainly hope the sides aren't equal) and with the potential that I've got, I could seriously mess up these people's lives if I cracked. Of course if that were to happen (it won't btw, for those of you getting worried :smirkle:) I would think myself justified in whatever I did, which leads to the next point of thought. Shifting perspectives. Can a thousand wrong choices on my part turn me into a monster without me even knowing it? Surely our choices define who we are, so it follows that a thousand petty mistakes based on weakness, will gradually wear away at our character, and if unchecked can turn us 180 degrees around. Maybe I'm already the bad guy, I've just been gradually blinded to it by my wearing weaknesses. Hmmm, scary thoughts, scary thoughts. That was pretty much random, did it make sense at all? I bet it didn't, I'm confused myself, so on that happy note,
taTa
I hit him
The mirror cracked
But he didn't fall down
And it is me, not him
That's bleeding
I was thinking of people, perspectives and potential last night. Jordan and I watched a movie about a gang of phsycopathic killers(well actually it was about the cops who caught them, but there were psycopathic killers in it, anyway....), and the haunting thing about it was that the fiercesome, sick, Chinese gang leader killer dude looked JUST LIKE my freind Craig K! It was weird. But it got me thinking about potential. The fascinating thing about potential is that it can go equally both ways. Its kind of scary really, walking into a room full of people, I'm a big enough person, (Intellectually and personality wise) I think, that I can add to the group, I could help people, maybe in a big way, and I want to. But there's two sides of me (I almost said halfs, which would have been doubly weird since halfs isn't even a word, but I certainly hope the sides aren't equal) and with the potential that I've got, I could seriously mess up these people's lives if I cracked. Of course if that were to happen (it won't btw, for those of you getting worried :smirkle:) I would think myself justified in whatever I did, which leads to the next point of thought. Shifting perspectives. Can a thousand wrong choices on my part turn me into a monster without me even knowing it? Surely our choices define who we are, so it follows that a thousand petty mistakes based on weakness, will gradually wear away at our character, and if unchecked can turn us 180 degrees around. Maybe I'm already the bad guy, I've just been gradually blinded to it by my wearing weaknesses. Hmmm, scary thoughts, scary thoughts. That was pretty much random, did it make sense at all? I bet it didn't, I'm confused myself, so on that happy note,
taTa
posted by Feanor at 11:39 AM
2 Comments:
I am commenting because at the bottom of your post it said "1 comments" (mine does too, I know, duh) and that freaketh me out. Good to have scary thoughts because without them, we couldn't really be said to have meaningful, deep thoughts at all.
It made sense. One choice can "crack" you and turn you into a monster. You are not 180 degrees backwards, either. Oh, I thought of mine was that 'halves' is a word. :-)
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